Sunday, April 10, 2005

Impetuous

I'm 28 years old and I still don't think things through totally. When there are choices to be made, I will invariably choose wrong - I believe I've said that before. If I haven't, I'm stating it for the record now. My goal now is to work on that flaw because it's really not attractive at all. This flaw affects all aspects of my life, including friendships.

My life is really at a standstill and I have a slew of decisions to make. Every single aspect of my personal life is in upheaval and I really don't know what my next step should be. Everybody seems to be under the impression that I am strong enough to handle the things that are going on with me, but they're mistaken. I'm not. If I were, I wouldn't be having the problems I have now. I have spent my entire life trying to make everybody happy. The problem with that is, when you attempt to do that, you make everyone unhappy.

There's a part of me that believes that the right decisions are in my heart and it's just a matter of implementing them, but until I figure out what those decisions are, I'm going to be running in circles. I guess this is just turning out to be a rough day, but I guess I've had rougher, so I'm sure I'll make it through.

2 comments:

HarlemSlim said...

"Think large and your deeds will grow, think small and you'll fall behind . . "

I consider this small selection from a larger poem almost daily. Bigger than thinking positively is acting. If you feel that you have the right answers, act on them! You only have one life live it to the fullest!!!

Kewi said...

Okay maybe we live the same life.. because I am in the same situation. I have no real advice .. because I am asking the same questions. So when you have any answers... BLOG them so I can be enlightened.. Good Luck...