Monday, January 02, 2006

New Year's Eve

So I spent the weekend in the Big Apple. I enjoyed myself, met some new people, hung out with old friends and, yes my friends, I danced on a table. That was pretty fun...not anything I plan on doing regularly though. However, with all of the fun that I had, I miss my children desperately. They were supposed to be here December 27 and they STILL have not come. I'm in the process of coming up with a Plan B for getting them up here. If I haven't said it before, procreating with inept morons is really not the new black. I know they'll be here soon. It's just the waiting that's getting to me.

There is so much that has changed for me in such a little time. Many of the changes were for the better. My children are going to love their new home, I've got a great job and even though the place I live in seems a little sterile, it's not half bad. I haven't completely committed to staying here forever, but I'm starting to get use to it. I think once I do more exploring and meet more people, I'll enjoy it a little better.

This year has been a doozy for me on a lot of levels. There is the most obvious doozy named Katrina. There is something to be said about losing everything you own in the blink of an eye to make you realize that none of those things matter. There are so many people who will NEVER be able to account for family members. So many people who will blame themselves for not forceing a family member to leave the city with them. It makes me thankful that I was able to kiss my kids goodnight, argue with my family and speak to my father. Possessions can be easily replaced. I'm eternally grateful that I was able to retain everything that matters in my world. My heart and prayers truly go out to the people that can't say the same.

There is something good around the corner for me. I can feel it. I can't say for sure what it is, however, I know it's there. Maybe it's a mind over matter thing just to make me feel more positive. But something inside of me tells me it's more than that. I hate to put my cynical nature on hold, but I think this might be worth it.

1 comment:

Curious1 said...

Alright, spending time in the big apple huh? That's whaddup!!!! Dancing on tables... Were you being naughty in NY? That's what it's all abouit girl.