Friday, August 19, 2005

Each Day

I try to live my life in a way that makes me a beautiful person. Sometimes I succeed, sometimes I fail, but each night I sleep with the knowledge that tomorrow is a new opportunity. My chance to adjust yesterday's mistakes and improve on its successes.

Part of "Project Beautiful" is mastering the art of letting go. There were two male someones who had hurt me very deeply in the past. I had a dream about one of the someones and in the dream, I was being rather hostile. He looked at me and said "You really need to let that go." And his dream self was right. I'd partially gotten past the pain, but not the anger. At the time I had that dream, I was in the process of letting go of a lot.

Today, I saw the other someone walking downtown as I was driving to work. I sort of braced myself for this flood of emotions, but I didn't feel much of anything other than the comfort of seeing an old friend and knowing that he was okay. Getting here was a looooooong road, almost seven years to be exact. But I'm here, and it almost feels liberating. I could get used to this.

2 comments:

NeenaLove said...

that is one of my absolute favorite songs playing on your blog.

this post is REAL. we all have to learn to let go of past hurts. i still get a little irritated when i see my high school sweetie.

i haven't run into the ONLY man to ever break my heart but i imagine that it will be VERY difficult. but i hope to have let him go as well.... if we ever do cross paths again. **sigh**

Sista K said...

*MAD APPLAUSE* THRU READING YOUR BLOG OVER TIME, I WAS THINKING YOU MIGHT BE HOLDING ONTO ALOT OF HURT. BUT AS I AM NOT CLOSE TO YOU DIDNT FEEL AT LIBERTY TO SAY. I TOO AM WORKING ON LETTING STUFF GO. I SUPPORT YOUR WORK IN PROGRESS TO A BETTER YOU...