Sunday, November 27, 2005

No turkey for me...thanks

I wasn't really in the mood for celebrating this Thanksgiving. Coincidentally, it was also my 29th birthday, and I wasn't much for celebrating that either. I was in NYC last weekend and I had a great time, so that fun just sort of carried over. I think the last time I had a revelrous birthday celebration, I was 26. My last 3 birthdays have been spent in quiet reflection. Of course I talk to some friends, but other than that, it's me and my thoughts.

Like most other people, my life at 29 is not what I expected it to be, but I'm sure I could have done worse. I did expect to be published by now. I was sure I'd have a degree. I thought I'd own my own home and I figured I'd only be on kid number one. I didn't expect to be divorced by 26. But I also didn't expect to be happy (usually) with being single, i.e., comfortable in my own skin.

As someone else brought out, the older I get, I realize more and more how many stupid people there are in the world. I had a conversation with my ex-husband the other day about the kids and I realize that his conversation has the same content as when we were 22 and 23. That was more than a little disturbing. (Sometimes I swear I know how Mary J. feels when she looks at K Ci.)

I can say that this has been a year for me to conclude old business. There are no skeletons or blasts from the past that I have to worry about. I guess my gift to myself this year is peace in my thoughts.

3 comments:

Danja said...

Yeahhhhh mannnn

Im with the peace of mind joint

What more do we need in life? I mean, really...

Amadeo said...

Well happy birthday and enjoy the peace...of course I plan to enjoy some alcohol too...

The Humanity Critic said...

Happy Birthday, even though it is days late..